An All New Life

I remember the day I had to switch schools. The boys from my old school were well boys. They did things and it drove me to the point of insanity! I remember being so afraid of going to school that I would cry every morning. I got tired of what the boys would do to me that i eventually told! Yes i no you all think I'm a snitch but, the thing is I respect myself and I didn't like were I was going! When I told my mom she was very understanding and kind. To tell ya the truth that was the first time in a long time I had seen her like that! The vice principal of my old school also understood my side he was very nice and i spent a lot of time in his office! The principal wasn't so nice! Any way my mom gave me two options 1. I could either go back to the hell hole i called school or 2. Go to another school. Guess what i chose? Well i wasn't about to go back to the hell hole if that's what your thinking! No, I chose to go to another school. I thought that i could create an all new me! Well i was half right! I did create an all new me! One that most every one hated! I couldn't blame them I tried to be some one I am clearly nawt! I told lies, tried to become popular, ruined my friendships, ruined others friendships, and started dating losers but that was the person that I called me! All that time I would try to hold my head high and smile! I hid behind a mask and no one ever knew! You know why? The idiots never ASKED! They just laughed like I was some nut job, some wacky nut job! I couldn't blame them on that either i WAS some wacky nut job. I would cry myself to sleep every night every flippen night! I got that same feeling i had from back at my old school. That sinking feeling in my stomach like some bad stomach ache that couldn't go away no matter how many pills I took! Then some time in march I was told news that would make me think and re-evaluate the thing that i had become! I was told I have a disease called R.A.! Do not ask me what it is I will not explain it! I had to quit volleyball quit P.E. (which i didn't mind to much), and I was told i would have to get blood taken every 2 months! I hate needles and they are not fun to me! Then I was told i would be taking 8 pills every friday then 2 pills every saturday! I have never been a drug addict and never will be! The only good thing that came out of this was the fact that I would have to ride horses more because they help lower stress! Believe me I took to that real well! No joke! Then by about May I started to stop caring all together about life. I stoped thinking what life would be like if I was no longer here on earth on who would miss me! Then at the end of may I finally got myself back together I and I tried I truly tried to change and thank heavens I did. I am now very happy with the real me and I have some great friends to prove it!!!